I'm feeling... Tuesday, Feb. 03, 2004 Ok kids, I know that it's been one fucking hell of a time since the last update, but, well, you know how it goes. Adam loses speedy internet, Adam get's disheartened, Adam loses faith in all reality, Adam forgets that he has a Diaryland for a few months. Thats about the jist of it. I could give you a bunch of shit reasons, but, well, I like the truth. Anywho, I think that I'm going to try and summarize the past couple of months here in this one entry. Here goes nothing. Well, it's somthing when you think about it. Anyway ::pops some ritalin:: let's see... ah, yes! Well, as you all know, the whole thing with Jer's college reinitiation/reintroduction(?) fell through. This means that there was a complete change in the work environment for me. This is a bad thing. It went from "Hey, I'm livin' with the guy, so it's no problem getting to him for anything he might need" to "What the fucking hell, I'm back at home but I have to be up at his place every day at 8a.m. to get him out of bed and back over there by 11p.m. to put him back to bed, leaving my happy ass with a mere 5 1/2 to 6 hours of sleep every night". Yep. Alot like that. You see, I signed on to be a live in because I knew the shit would hit the fan if I wasn't. It's my fault for going along with it after the whole thing with school happened. Note that I wasn't always up there by 8a.m. and that I'm truly sorry about that. I do have to get some sleep. But hey, it was still my fault. My bad dude and I'm sorry. We went through this shit though, butting heads at every turn for what I think was a month and a half. I could be wrong on that length of time though. Eventually, we came up with the idea that I would come over in the nights and drive him around and shit while his mom would get him up in the mornings. That's cool. She was still a PCA so she could get payed for it. That's cool too. I could get sleep and have somewhat of a more active social life. That's awsome. Well, after a couple weeks of doing this, heh, I realize that this is fucking me over. I'm not getting the hours I need and, well, I need money right now. Parents you know? Half an hour each night is shit so what choice do I have? I can't just go over and spend all day there. There just isn't enough to do. So where I stand in the job situation, is I'm still doing this thing with Jer in the nights and I am looking for a job somewhere in town. Full fucking time. One of those 9 to 5 jobs (or one of those 10 to 6 things, please!) Anything right now. I'm really hoping to get a job at the new Hot Topic opening in town. Oh god, I want this job so fucking bad I can taste it. Thats about it for the Jobs section of missing Adam updates. Well, now for another subject. Ok, here's one that seems to be a really juicy one these days. "RP" or "Role Playing" for those who aren't "in the know" about these new-fangled terms the kids are using these days. Well, for starters, there's Tini's games. Heh, these are really annoying if you ask me. We had a crossover game going on with Garou, Corax, Bastet, and, wait for it, MAGES! Yeah, I know, Mages. Awsome, eh? Everybody was really enjoying the game when, well, Tini killed for a no good reason. Well, you see, the game was going really well when a few players, namely 3 of the 9 players quit. Tini had gotten "fed up" with the apparent "lack of dedication" people had for the game. Jimmer had to quit due to a lack of availability to give to the game. Now Jim had just moved like, 20 minutes away. Due to the lack of time and the distance, he had to call it quits. Otherwise he would have stayed. Then there was Andy, who wasn't really even supposed to be in the game in the first place, but he quit. No reason, that one. Not important. But apparently, the final straw was his girlfriend, Lisa. Apparently, the only reason that she was playing in the first place was the fact that Tini was into it and she was willing to give it a shot. Oh, god, she gave it a shot man. She wasn't into it to begin with, why make her stay? Anyways, he just dumped that game in the gutter. Never mind the 2 guys from Jefferson City who were driving a good hour and a half to and back just to go to a game when you know damn well they have things that they could be doing. Nevermind the 16 year old high school student who lives out in Podunk, Earth who did everything she could to get to the games, when she could have said, "Hey, I have productive shit to do." and saved herself all that trouble. Yeah, nevermind them. Well, NOW Tini is getting to do what he really wanted to do and start a Mage initiates game going. I'm just waiting to see where this one goes. Stay tuned for updates fropm the frontlines on that one, kids. In other RP news, the Nagah game that Tony, Steve, and myself were in with Jer is pretty much dead. should have seen that one coming you know. We knew damn well that Steve was probably going to be called away to some other country. Ah well. Nothing we can do now but wait. If that. Ironically, we STILL aren't done with the GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING APOCALYPSE GAME! WHY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AREN'T WE DONE YOU ASK? I'LL TELL YOU WHY! JOEY AND JASON (apparently important characters in this chronicle) ARE COMPLETELY OUT OF THE PICTURE. THAT AND THE COMPLETE INABILITY TO GET ANYONE OVER TO JER HOUSE AT ANY ONE TIME. Oh well. Meus is always ready and willing to go. HEHEHEHEHEHE. Oh, and most recently, Jer started up his Terminator/Werewolf chronicle up. There are many things that are wrong in the world, as far as the Terminator universe goes. Suprisingly, Jer originally wanted it to be as exact as possible. Not so suprisingly, however, is that fact that Jer allots most of the indiscrepencies that are so common and ill-suited to this game to his FAVORITE tool, which is the infamous "storyteller discretion". Gotta love it. Whatever. His game, his rules. Aside frome that though, I'm enjoying it. Heh, I guarantee that I am going to hear about this from Jer. Just watch kids. Kirby doesn't mind, do ya Kirby? <(^o^)> -NO! In Other news there is suprisingly little that I am going to put into this entry. I will tell you, however, that there are things going on not even 50 miles away that are bugging the hell out of me, yet I can't do anything about it when I need to. Doesn't really bother me too much, but there is a twinge of annoyance present in the back of my mind right now that something needs to be done. However, one thing that is pulling my brain the fuck apart in a most unholy and unsanctified manner, is the whole thing with Steve. I've lost my closest friend, dare I say brother like figure, to this war in Iraq. Now don't get me wrong, he's not dead, it's just that he was called up and shipped out in less than a month. I just can't push the fact that he is right there in the heat of it out, let alone the fact that he could die at any moment and I think that, maybe, just maybe, I could feel it. I've just taught him so many things, that I connected. I taught him how to kill, both quickly and slowly, taught him how to make bombs, given some survival tips, and tried to prepare him mentally (somewhat) for what might happen. All that training years ago, well, that could be tested. I really hope it doesn't though. At least, if I'm not there in the frey along side my pupil, my friend, my bond-brother. Anyway, there will be more to come. Maybe tommorrow, I'll describe the dream. We'll see. Until next time kids, keep on watchin' and always go for sternum! Good night... Adam "Tyr" Cameron

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