I'm feeling... Monday, Mar. 07, 2005 Ok, so I'm sick. I feel like shit and have been doing so since Friday. I went out to Applebee's with Tony, Lexy, and John on Friday, despite this. I had wanted to go and they had agreed, so I wasn't going to let it go to waste. I figured that I could just explain my situation to James and he would let me go early. This way, I could just lay down and rest. You know, take it easy for a spell. Nope. Not on Saturday. He wasn't about to be left alone on a Saturday. Big fucking deal dude. I've worked alone for hours on end without breaking a sweat. It was slow that day so it's not like it would have been a big deal to let the sick guy go home and die a couple of hours early. Fuck it. I milled around for most of the day anyway. What else was I going to do all day, help people? Yeah, with the way that I was coughing and sneezing (which I am still doing by the way) I probably would have drivin customers away. I was supposed to call Tony I think. I don't remember any more. I just got home, drank some juice (I think) and fell asleep. Slept from about 9:15 to about 10:30 the next day, with a few fevers here and there. Felt like shit but still went in. Got bitched at all day for not putting 110% effort into everything that I did that day. God forbid I let a sale walk out the door after they say that they will think about it. If you have a serious problem with the way I work while fucked up on Sudafed and Aleve, then you can fire me. Let's see how well that looks when I take that to court eh? Fuck it. I'm working with Derek today. It's pretty cool. He's getting transfered to the Fulton Radio Shack. There he gets to work with Jit, Jon, and a couple of other pretty cool dudes. Wish I could go with him. Sold two phones. Big fucking deal right? Steve is home. This is fucking awesome, as we all know. Steve has been in Irag for what I think is a year. Things are still going strong with him and Dawn. He is still addicted to "not-so-legal" porno. And he is still a 3==D Mac 3==D user. That's a dick by the way for those of you who don't understand what that 3==D was. All I know is that I got my buddy back. It's like Abbot of the Costello and shit all over again. I'm really not feeling too hot right about now. Got to go out with Steve tonight. Don't really feel like it but he did ask. So what the hell. I'm not going to be out late anyway. Oh, Tony, we need to hang out some yo. The whole scrolling marquee thingy is actually directed to the world as a whole. All of the financial shit I'm going through, the prospect of school, the car, this shitty ass job, all of it. I can't really do what I want to do until I get it all straightened out. And what I really really want to do is to go to a rave with my friends and not have to worry about getting the fucking car home to my parents, how much I'm spending, and getting to work on time the next god damned day. I just want all of my friends to go to a rave with me. You, Lexy, John (fat chance though), Steve, Alison, Dawn, Lacey, Britnee, and Josh. I just want all of us to go and have a fucking hell of a time and I just don't want to worry about anything else while there. And until I get everything in my life straightened out to where I need it to be, I can't do this. I just miss being a stupid shit who didn't have to deal with all of the problems or any of the other things. I'm just tired of having to bail people out of things at work. I'm tired of not having a car. Im tired of being in this shithole. I'm tired of not having an education that can get me out of here. I'm tire of being alone. I'm tired of being who I am. And until I can work ALL of these things out, I guess I'm just up shit creek without a paddle. I don't mean to vent on you or any one in particular, because it's nobody's fault but my own. By the way, for those of you who feel that you are nothing but a seasonal friend, so to speak, let me tell you this. We all have our favorite season. We spend all year waiting for our season to roll around, and when it finally does, we're as happy as flies on shit. I believe that if anything is really good, than it is definitly worth waiting for. And your worth it. So, until greater seasons are upon us, Adam "Tyr" Cameron

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